I hate....

This two days, we have a happy day:) We talk to each others, we msg with each other. But until today, I ruined everything:( I hate myself so much:( If I can choose, I choose not to talk to him anything but just help him to overcome everything:( I hate myself... I am sorry because I made you upset. I hope you can forgive me and don't angry at me... You know I need you:( I need you :( I almost want to cry le... I am really very sorry... I know you don't have feelings towards me again... I don't want to force you, but I really hope I will always have a position in your heart not only as a best friend but as a girlfriend. Maybe I rush anything and made you felt annoying... I really don't want to lose to that girl again... I hope you understand everything ... Anyway I am sorry:(

After this

Tonight was a surprise birthday party for Chea Arn:) I went home around 8:00... Supposed we will go to sing karaoke at Season... But because of the transport problem so I went home early... On the way going home, everything flows out of my mind... All our memories just suddenly flow out...

From the night we break up, I know everything will be different. The way you treat me will be different. The feeling you towards me will be different...From the night we break up, I know that there'll be a reason that make us break up. Just you try to avoid the reason. I keep on calling you, keep on sms you, keep on asking you, all because I want to know the truth. Until that night, you told me ' I lost all the feelings'. From that moment, I know that I should wake up from the dream and stand up and continue my life's journey.

But I try to find excuse for myself that one day we will get back together. Because of that excuse, everyday I keep on waiting for your msg, waiting for your call because I believe that I am still your admire girl. I thought you really lost the feelings and you are trying your best to find it. But until that day you told me you have feelings towards other girl. I am really down. I almost get shocked. I thought you love me forever and ever. And that's just a thought for a little girl.

You know how difficult for me to accept the truth. The tears dropped, the heart with blood, and I can't describe the pain in words but you will never know about it. You will only be happy because you found another her but you leave me. You always said that I leave you, but I leave you will always come back for you, but this time, you leave me you never come back for me again.

I try to be happy in front of my parents bacause I don't want them to be worry. I couldn't eat many because I don't have appetite. When that moment I know that you have feelings towards her, I really want to know who is that her? She can replaced my position in your heart. Or she steal your heart away? I know everything is a past tense. Life should be moving on without you. My life should be great. Thank you because you let me learn that things will not going on like what I expected and people will not treat us like what we expect.

I will forget you totally but i need time to rest. My heart need rest. But I think you totally forgot me and its ok. Life will always be unfair. From the moment, I decided to clear everthing, I already know that this path would be a difficult path. Thank you my friends and my advisor, Matthew. Especially Thank God:) You're the greatest God that I ever had from the past till the future:)

After this blog,

No more tears
No more pain



My Life will be great in the future

Forget the past, Aim the future:)

For you: I don't have all the feeling towards you again... I decided to forget you totally... We will never have chance to get back again... Everything should start again... You have your own new life and i will have my own new life too... My life will be better without you:) I will not bother about you again and again... We're friends...

Now I should study hard for my SPM:) and do whatever I want to do:) God will lead me and God love me so much:) I love God so much:) Yeah Yeah:)

Everything goes back to normal...

For 9 and the half months, I am very happy because I be with you:) Without you, Wei Li will never be Wei Li again. But since we both decided to break up now, then we should totally let go... But we are still best friends? That night, you said we will still be best friends... You said you still love me:) And I totally trust you:) Because of all our promises:) I will fullfill all my promise to you:) And I hope you will fullfill your promise too:) We will study hard and work hard for our future:) I will never forget you:) I am still waiting you:) My love to you will never decrease and only keep on increasing:) We will get back together soon rite? This is what you said:) I will always remember:) When I am not be by your side, please take care yourself and mickey is companying you:) Just want to tell you... I love you:)

Memories^^

First of all, this blog is for both of you:) Hey girls, I know we are having a lot of problems now. I don't know I am the one who always think negative or those problems are really appear. I feel that I have been left out in the gang. I feel that we are speechless when we all be together. Everything started to change since last year. You girls started to keep all those stuff away from me. You girls rather share your stuff with HL than me. I felt disappointed. I don't know this friendship can last for how long, but I know that I am still treating you all as my sisters but you girls seem like don't know the meaning of sister. There is so meaningless for us to be sisters if you girls don't know what is the meaning of sister.
Let me remind you girls, friendship is priceless. We can meet each other and become best friend, those are our fate and our luck^^ True friend will always be there for you and no matter who you are, they will still treat you with their sincere heart. The way you girls treat Syuan I really don't like. You girls never think if you were her, how was your feeling? Imaging you're crying and all your 'best' friends keep on backstabbing you and keep on thinking a way to insult you, will you like it? If you like it you can continue to treat her in this way. If you don't like it, please stop to do that. It really hurts her. You girls know that feeling because you girls ever experienced it.
Ya... She did something and hurt you girls and make you girls felt uncomfortable. But she is still a human being. No one is perfect in this world even you are also not the perfect girl in this world. She did those stuff because she will always think about herself rather than others. What about you girls? I think you girls too. You will also think about yourself rather than others. She already tried her best to change and I felt that she is changing. Don't look at a person with your colour eyes... Try to forget about what she did before and try to accept her. You just have to forgive her.
This is our last year being together. I hope our memories all fill up with happiness and joyful. Even if you girls don't like her, just need to be tolerant for ten more months. After that you girls don't need to contact again. It's so simple...Always remember don't do something that you don't like to others, it may hurts other.
Back to our problem, I don't know how can I solve it? Could you girls teach me how to solve it? Are we still sisters? I will always treat you girls as my sisters no matter what happen. Because true friend will always be there for you^^Should I always find excuse for you girls? Should I always think positively?

happy new year^^

Happy New Year to all of you! Have a great year:) This year is important for me. I will sitting for my SPM on 9 of november. I think I still left 10 months. What am I going to do in this 10 months? The days without him:( What can I do? I just celebrated my 17 birthday le... This year my birthday is the most special birthday le.We are having our breakfast with Julian and Syuan at Ming Cafe. Then we went to parkson and have our lunch at pizza hut with syuan, lifen, livia, tiing, theresa, shamus and chea arn. After that we decided to play bowling:) Hehe.... Darling, don't be sad k? I don't need the present from you coz you are the bestest present for me^^ Hehe... I love you<3 Oh ya... I have passed my law exam le... Hehe... 42/50... so nervous le... This saturday he is going to national service le:( I will miss him le... I think i can only meet him during chinese new year le... I will use this time to study hard and score the best le:) hehe...