A difficult decision

This few days you started to be busy with your friends. I just want you to have time with me.You have a lots of programmes with your friends but you never plan a lot of programmes with me. I am jealous. I care and I just want you to care me and my feelings too... Don't ypu know that??? You go out to have lunch with your friend, you go to play bowling with your friend, you go to play golf and have dinner with your friend. Then what about me??? I know I don't have much money to treat you but your friend has. I didn't even celebrate my birthday happily and unforgetable.... its ok le... to seperate might be the good decision so that you can know my need. Goodbye.

Frustrated

Suddenly my laptop screen turn black. OMG!!! What's the problem??? I am so nervous so I called him. I really worried about my laptop so I decided to call Dell Service Centre. Finally I done with my laptop. Its just LCD Cable loose. Phew... I called him again. But he seems like unhappy because I rather ask help from other ppl. Sometimes he doesn't know what am I thinking now. I just want to have a confirm answer and settle everything soon. But he doesn't know that. Feel frustrated now. I don't want to msg with him now so that we will not quarrel. Feel so frustrated. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa................

I hate....

This two days, we have a happy day:) We talk to each others, we msg with each other. But until today, I ruined everything:( I hate myself so much:( If I can choose, I choose not to talk to him anything but just help him to overcome everything:( I hate myself... I am sorry because I made you upset. I hope you can forgive me and don't angry at me... You know I need you:( I need you :( I almost want to cry le... I am really very sorry... I know you don't have feelings towards me again... I don't want to force you, but I really hope I will always have a position in your heart not only as a best friend but as a girlfriend. Maybe I rush anything and made you felt annoying... I really don't want to lose to that girl again... I hope you understand everything ... Anyway I am sorry:(

After this

Tonight was a surprise birthday party for Chea Arn:) I went home around 8:00... Supposed we will go to sing karaoke at Season... But because of the transport problem so I went home early... On the way going home, everything flows out of my mind... All our memories just suddenly flow out...

From the night we break up, I know everything will be different. The way you treat me will be different. The feeling you towards me will be different...From the night we break up, I know that there'll be a reason that make us break up. Just you try to avoid the reason. I keep on calling you, keep on sms you, keep on asking you, all because I want to know the truth. Until that night, you told me ' I lost all the feelings'. From that moment, I know that I should wake up from the dream and stand up and continue my life's journey.

But I try to find excuse for myself that one day we will get back together. Because of that excuse, everyday I keep on waiting for your msg, waiting for your call because I believe that I am still your admire girl. I thought you really lost the feelings and you are trying your best to find it. But until that day you told me you have feelings towards other girl. I am really down. I almost get shocked. I thought you love me forever and ever. And that's just a thought for a little girl.

You know how difficult for me to accept the truth. The tears dropped, the heart with blood, and I can't describe the pain in words but you will never know about it. You will only be happy because you found another her but you leave me. You always said that I leave you, but I leave you will always come back for you, but this time, you leave me you never come back for me again.

I try to be happy in front of my parents bacause I don't want them to be worry. I couldn't eat many because I don't have appetite. When that moment I know that you have feelings towards her, I really want to know who is that her? She can replaced my position in your heart. Or she steal your heart away? I know everything is a past tense. Life should be moving on without you. My life should be great. Thank you because you let me learn that things will not going on like what I expected and people will not treat us like what we expect.

I will forget you totally but i need time to rest. My heart need rest. But I think you totally forgot me and its ok. Life will always be unfair. From the moment, I decided to clear everthing, I already know that this path would be a difficult path. Thank you my friends and my advisor, Matthew. Especially Thank God:) You're the greatest God that I ever had from the past till the future:)

After this blog,

No more tears
No more pain



My Life will be great in the future

Forget the past, Aim the future:)

For you: I don't have all the feeling towards you again... I decided to forget you totally... We will never have chance to get back again... Everything should start again... You have your own new life and i will have my own new life too... My life will be better without you:) I will not bother about you again and again... We're friends...

Now I should study hard for my SPM:) and do whatever I want to do:) God will lead me and God love me so much:) I love God so much:) Yeah Yeah:)

Everything goes back to normal...

For 9 and the half months, I am very happy because I be with you:) Without you, Wei Li will never be Wei Li again. But since we both decided to break up now, then we should totally let go... But we are still best friends? That night, you said we will still be best friends... You said you still love me:) And I totally trust you:) Because of all our promises:) I will fullfill all my promise to you:) And I hope you will fullfill your promise too:) We will study hard and work hard for our future:) I will never forget you:) I am still waiting you:) My love to you will never decrease and only keep on increasing:) We will get back together soon rite? This is what you said:) I will always remember:) When I am not be by your side, please take care yourself and mickey is companying you:) Just want to tell you... I love you:)

Memories^^

First of all, this blog is for both of you:) Hey girls, I know we are having a lot of problems now. I don't know I am the one who always think negative or those problems are really appear. I feel that I have been left out in the gang. I feel that we are speechless when we all be together. Everything started to change since last year. You girls started to keep all those stuff away from me. You girls rather share your stuff with HL than me. I felt disappointed. I don't know this friendship can last for how long, but I know that I am still treating you all as my sisters but you girls seem like don't know the meaning of sister. There is so meaningless for us to be sisters if you girls don't know what is the meaning of sister.
Let me remind you girls, friendship is priceless. We can meet each other and become best friend, those are our fate and our luck^^ True friend will always be there for you and no matter who you are, they will still treat you with their sincere heart. The way you girls treat Syuan I really don't like. You girls never think if you were her, how was your feeling? Imaging you're crying and all your 'best' friends keep on backstabbing you and keep on thinking a way to insult you, will you like it? If you like it you can continue to treat her in this way. If you don't like it, please stop to do that. It really hurts her. You girls know that feeling because you girls ever experienced it.
Ya... She did something and hurt you girls and make you girls felt uncomfortable. But she is still a human being. No one is perfect in this world even you are also not the perfect girl in this world. She did those stuff because she will always think about herself rather than others. What about you girls? I think you girls too. You will also think about yourself rather than others. She already tried her best to change and I felt that she is changing. Don't look at a person with your colour eyes... Try to forget about what she did before and try to accept her. You just have to forgive her.
This is our last year being together. I hope our memories all fill up with happiness and joyful. Even if you girls don't like her, just need to be tolerant for ten more months. After that you girls don't need to contact again. It's so simple...Always remember don't do something that you don't like to others, it may hurts other.
Back to our problem, I don't know how can I solve it? Could you girls teach me how to solve it? Are we still sisters? I will always treat you girls as my sisters no matter what happen. Because true friend will always be there for you^^Should I always find excuse for you girls? Should I always think positively?

happy new year^^

Happy New Year to all of you! Have a great year:) This year is important for me. I will sitting for my SPM on 9 of november. I think I still left 10 months. What am I going to do in this 10 months? The days without him:( What can I do? I just celebrated my 17 birthday le... This year my birthday is the most special birthday le.We are having our breakfast with Julian and Syuan at Ming Cafe. Then we went to parkson and have our lunch at pizza hut with syuan, lifen, livia, tiing, theresa, shamus and chea arn. After that we decided to play bowling:) Hehe.... Darling, don't be sad k? I don't need the present from you coz you are the bestest present for me^^ Hehe... I love you<3 Oh ya... I have passed my law exam le... Hehe... 42/50... so nervous le... This saturday he is going to national service le:( I will miss him le... I think i can only meet him during chinese new year le... I will use this time to study hard and score the best le:) hehe...

WeiLi here to post my blog again:) Christmas is around the corner... two more days to christmas:) our first christmas le... Hehe... Prepare a simple but special present for him.... I wish he will like it^^ I will celebrate my christmas with him. I gonna to be in pink and white on that day. Oh ya... 30 of december i will sit for my law exam le... So happy but also nervous la... Haha... Btw, birthday is coming soon le.. 10 more days:) Will my birthday still same with my sweet 16 birthday or better than that or just like that? But I better don't be so greedy le... Just be satisfied with what i have.... It is enough to be with him and my sisters:)
Syuan, WeiLi miss you so much le... No ppl can gossip with me le:( So sad la.... Now waiting for his msg la.... I think he is busy la... Bye:)

Hey... Finally I back to my blogging world:) I think almost one and half month i didn't post my blog... What should I write in this post? Hmmm.... Let start with my holiday:) Em... I have a wonderful holiday:) Last month I went to kl for my holiday:) I enjoy so much... I will upload the photo to my friendster profile soon. Have a nice shopping trip... Bought few t-shirt, dress, skirt, blouses and earrings... And also have our nice time in Seremban for attending church courses.God will always be with us. Thank for His kindness and mercy.
Next, prefect camp is coming soon. But I can't join the camp because grandma is going to singapore on 12 of december. Hope you guys good luck in the camp:)
I learnt a lot of things from this courtship:) I learnt to be patience, learn to trust people, learn to be more gentle and always care about ppl feeling:) Although we will quarrel sometimes, but this will just make us growing up:) hehe.... Anyway, sorry for i have done something to make you upset and angry:( sorry....

Our frst month anniversary:) Yeah!!! May God be with us all the time...

You disappointed me....

I never be like this before... Today I cried. I shouldn't cry. I don't want to show my weak side in front of Mike. I ever promised him that I will always be a happy go lucky girl. I will always be strong for him. But I break my promise. When I cried and walk out form the class, the person came out and chase me not Livia, not Lifen, but is Theresa. You guys disappointed me... Theresa, thanks a lot:)
True friends will always be there for you. True friends will accept them for who they are no matter what happen. This few days I rather sit at there alone. I think your friends now are more important than your sisters. Today I just realize that what are sisters??? Treat your bestest sisters with your heart what can you get back as your reward? Disppointed you? Cried and tears? Lost faith in you? Leave you alone without care about your feeling? I hate this kind of friendship...
You girls tell me what can I do now... I will still treat you girls as my sister whatever what happen.... Just because I love you girls...

The adventure

Today I go to hiking with Mike, Syuan, LiFen, Julian, Ronny, Chea Arn, Felix, Jeremy, Lanny and Lifen's mummy. Wow.... I did enjoy it. But something happened. I nearly pengsan. Thx God. I keep on praying to God. Btw, luckily Mike was there. Thx, dear:) I think this happen because of I lack of exercise lo... Nevermind... I am ok now:) don't worry k? Congratulation to Syuan and WeiLi. We complete our journey. The way to success:) Haha... I love you, Dear<3 Muakzzzz....

Mummy and Daddy knew about me and mike le... I know she will worry about me... She scared I will get hurt and she worried it will affect my studies. I hope my mummy read this blog. I just want to let her know that I know how to handle this relationship and my studies. You should trust me about it. Finally, I persuaded her lo.... She let me go out with Mike:) Yeah!!! Happy. I no need to withold the truth le:)

Haha... Today I broke his slippers.. Sorry, Mike:( After that then we go to bata and buy new slippers... Haha...

Sweet:)

WeiLi is in love now... Yeah!!! Happy happy happy...

For him: You let me know what is 'xin fu'...From the moment you told me that you love me, I know that I will be the most lucky girl in the world... Hope you don't disappoited me... Although I am not a best girlfriend but I will try to be a best girlfriend just for you only.... I just hope you can happy all the time and enjoy your time with me:) Let us fill up our memories with our sweet moments... I am glad to have you as my boyfriend and I am appreciated it... Thanks God for everything he has given me.I did appreciate it:)

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What a wonderful day:) Em...This morning I am going to daddy's hotel and wait for Mike. He will bring me to bak kut teh and meet with Syuan, Julian, Tiing and Eric. Sorry Syuan and Julian.... We are late to be there. Really very sorry... Livia was late to there and we got to leave her there with Vivian. Sorry, Livia.

After that, we go to KK bookstore because Wei Li want to buy kamus peribahasa... My peribahasa very worst lo.... Haha... Luckily I go to KK bookstore alone lo.... Mike met Mr Ting le... Ting Gor Gor... Aiye.... After that we go to parkson... I miss the sweet moment be with you:) I will never forget it.... Thanks, Mike:) Haha...

Lifen, sorry about today you can't hang out with us... But nevermind, we can hang out after the semester axam... So all of us gambateh now:) Good luck to all of us:) We can do the best

Boring Night:(

What a boring night la.... dar and ah bee not at home... No people gossip with me.... He went to play basketball le... No people company me... But WeiLi is ok la....Must always be happy de ma... I can pass my time by revising my physics:) WeiLi Gambateh! My promise to be a caring and loving gf. Yeah!!! Nite nite... everyone:)

Embarrasing...

OMG, I did an embarrasing thing during physics period lo.... You can refer to Lifen's blog... Really very pai seh la.... Haha.....I hide my face into the jacket... Everyone laugh at me.... He laugh at me too..... Bad MIKE....
Btw, today is a special day for me and him:) what a wonderful day... Haha... Wish us good luck all the way...May God be with us ....

WeiLi

First, Happy birthday to Sik Khin, my dear son:) Mummy love you always...

For me, I think now is not the time to dating... By the way, I need more times... I heard too much story about him... I think this is the reminder for me:) Thx guys!!! Don't worry k? I will be fine and I know what am I doing now? WeiLi will always be strong and happy... Yeah!

Bee, thx for giving me advice:) I start to understand love a person without any reason. Just like last time I like him... I shouldn't scare of any reason, I should try everything:) Just dan chun de like him then ok liao:) Should be happy and don't worry

First...

First, I want to say happy birthday, Girl girl:) Hope you love this birthday party and the present. Btw, I am sorry because of belated birthday wish from my blog. I wish you girls will be happy forever. Something for you girls:

LiFen: Ah Bee, sweetie love you very much:) I hope you know this and I will never left you out because you are my lovely sister. I won't let anything hurt you and protect you untill the end. I love you:) Muakzzzz...

Syuan: Dar dar, I am glad to have you as my sister. Although sometimes you might do something make me disappointed but you are still my lovely sister forever and ever. Never change:) Muakzzzz....

Tiing: Hey, dear dear. Congratulate to you:) Wish you and him have a lot of sweet moments. I hope you can try to be a best gf and trust him all the way. I believe he really loves you:) WeiLi loves you too... Muakzzzz


Livia: Hey, Girl girl. I wish you could find him( someone I dunno but you know who he is la) anyway, we are always the bestest sister in the world so gambateh ya:) Good luck in all the way. Muakzzzz

Amy: Mimii, you are always my bestest sister:) remember that we have a date o... We still haven't hang out for shopping o... Hehe... See when we're free, just hang out lo... All the way best:) Muakzzzz..